My conscience and faith lead me to a place where I now realize that I must stand by them and not waver, as I have flirted, (like any thinking man or woman) with the other views. Sad to me is the person who hasn't, the person with such weak intellect that they have not tried to see the other's side of things from time to time. But over not only years but several decades, I have sorted it out; and the actions of my moral enemies have not weakened the resolve but solidified the intransigence. You have not swayed me; you have created a forever enemy. Since the repeal of many moral laws (regrettably in my opinion), we have not said they couldn't; we have said that they shouldn't. As much as we are concerned for the behavior of society in a moral sense we are concerned, even worried, for their souls.
What I have been trying to say since yesterday and have felt for some long time now, is that we Conservative, Liberty loving Americans are NOT at war with our country or current government, but that a state exists now like what the Catholic Church commonly calls a schism, a break between a group of believers who fundamentally disagree with the core organization on the orthodox doctrine. Schisms occur when the schismatics think that the core organization has broken with the true doctrine of the belief system. Usually they are wrong. This time the schismatic conservatives are correct, and the core organization (the U.S. Government) has been perverted by the influence of evil.
When one is older, even if they are contemplating a lengthy old age, one fears less. What more can they do to you but send you to Heaven sooner. So I will stand for principles long held, if necessary in battle and to the death. And if I would change anything about America's founding, I would (while maintaining her freedoms of conscience for each individual) make her an Official Christian nation. We owe no foreign person in this world anything, least of all a home, o I would through measured yet equitable immigration maintain a Christian majority population.
Such talk of the risk of death sounds overly dramatic, but black, female, Conservative activist, Star Parker has said that these years now remind her of those immediately leading up to the American Civil War, the War Between the States or War of Southern Secession. The risks may be real. Cave in to those in power who are guided (unknowingly) by Satan or stand on principle, on conscience and faith, or face those risks if they arise. Yet there are peaceful ways as the Civil Rights movement proved. Christians may have to develop mass protesting procedures if they have the guts. Their numbers could freeze a society in place. Christians outnumber the blacks of the successful movement in the nineteen sixties.
The Civil War was fought for defense of local state and regional rights, and unfortunately slavery was wrapped up ion that. The issues now are greater and thus the risk of conflict is perhaps too. The Southerners in 1860 could have given up slavery, perhaps slowly converted to tenant farming with the same African people, and then petitioned and lobbied for regional autonomy and domestic self government within the larger nation. I cannot tell the current national government that I will cave to their ideas on family and management of personal concerns such as health. I cannot acquiesce to the idea that they run my life . . . because even if the do, they don't. They never will. On the philosophical plain they cannot trump God's law and Natural Law. So, if for a time they rule me in a de facto sense, they cannot in a de jure sense . . . illegal laws don't count. I cannot surrender on issues of eternal truth as the Southerners could have bargained their stand on slavery.
The result of all of this is that I am_ more disconnected philosophically from the secular world; more intrenched in my faith and its belief principles; more determined to fight for freedom, but within the moral code of my faith; & more determined to never fall back and change my defense of eternal truths. Lucky I am (I suppose) that through retirement and geographical relocation, I have lost touch with a few gay friends and somewhat close acquaintances. There will be no new ones. that is not out of unkindness; it is a first step in a stand for something. Upon meeting, I won't be rude; but neither will I linger. I will speak out for, write about, and otherwise work tirelessly first for a reversal of America politically (unlikely) and secondly for either regional secession or some sort of autonomous split of Conservative principled people from the domestic control of Washington. The latter would have to be almost as dramatic as secession because who wants to be tied to international treaties agreed to by Washington?
'Bizarrely overly dramatic' my detractors might say of my goals; however, I refer back to Star Parker's comment a few years ago during the earlier time of the current administration (mentioned above). Shocking to me (as I have often mentioned) was the insight of one of my offspring in their youth that the sociopolitical split between Americans was unmendable. Then a young teenager, their comment was deeply fr reaching . . . out of the mouths of babes. So let us give up on that and move on. I will mention as well that some of America's founders may have predicted early on the dissolution of America in later years as did the astute observer Alexis de Tocqueville. But take note that this is not about race. Too many black friends and those of other minorities agree with me. They agree that if we (the nation's populace) cannot agree, let us stop trying and get on with being different in two neighboring regions or nations. I'm a loyal American until that nation changes in some way (such as my suggested change), but nothing is sacred, least of all the forever existence of any country, including the United States.